To Fun Fair

Night I with my family go to Fun Fair...
haha...got things play..
whoa hu....

sure have alot of fun..^^

but when i reach there...
ermm....make me disappoint...
nothing can play...
all for child..

oh man~ damn not fun to play..
all games just so simple and it so lanc...

aiskz....then just stand at there see my 2 little brother and sister play...
mom also say so lanc...haha
bored~
but, let me see dao some leng zai...haha...
not so leng la...
just their looks ok ok la...
say shuang..xD

then we go to eat supper...
actually dad say wanna go to upperstar de...
but at last no go..
aiskz...sad...

never been there...
cant believe right? haha...cause no go only...
no other reason..

New Instrument

Tonight when i go to church..wow..
something differences.

got new instruments-PIANO..
touch screen lagi gong..><
oh man~ damn beauti~
love it so much...
hope it is mine..haha..

and got extra speaker....
2 for guitar, 1 for piano...

haha...church upgrade jor...
more instrument and P.A's things...
music more nice...

love music so much~

ShoPpIng dAy~

Today i go to shopping with Alyssa, my sis and Yong....
haha...finally can wash hair ler～ cannot tahan dao 3days no wash hair...>< style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">Alyssa de hair need rebonding again~cause not straight...== FREE lagi~

after wash hair, are going to watch movie..
That Jay Chou and Ling Zhi Ling act de "The Treasure Hunter"

that movie make me got abit feel ngong ngong dono what are they talking...

Finish watch movie, we having a walk at there, then Alyssa back home...
then me and my sis and yong at there jalan2...

HE got find me, got abit spoil my mood..
==

at night back home by my k gor's car..feel so soli to him orh..
cause call him fetch us back...aiskz....but he say its ok...
he so good..T^T

haha..next time who be his gf sure veli good...
bless him find dao a gf that he like...


aiskz~money almost use finish ler..but still not yet buy all the things that i need..
school back~ sport shoes~ contact lens~and alots~
wan buy it fast..><

CHRISTMAS DAY

In the Morning,Yong And My Family go to celebrate christmas..we are going to Bukit Padang there's Restaurant to celebrated our Christmas day with whole CALVARY Church's member...At there got LJQ, YQ, JH, JY and some church member...

Almost 10am the performance start...I got sing with MY CHURCH MEMBER-LIDO'S...
after that,we got sing a song name "HAPPY DAY"...then see other church member perform,and listen pastor's speech...



Leader's Sing & English Church perform


haha...look so mature

almost 12pm...we are having our lunch..there's food not so good...haha..YONG so hungry,he keep eat eat eat..haha..we just like so many days no eat's ppl...xD 1pm we back home..


|NIGHT|

7pm we reach a place that i dont know what name, we at there having our church,ONLY LIDOS'...DINNER~ haha..so many church member there...
haha..all youth sit together...we keep take many food eat and eat so fast...haha...funny...
but most pity is YONG QUAN..haha..cause he need to play piano that night...seems not eat so much..haha...

LJQ them take some food put on his plate wait him back to eat...haha....we so good right...xD
Me and LJQ keep SS take pic..haha...seems like long time no take pic together...






mii not so leng ..><


^^^^^^ ^^^^^^
Mi Looks fat Qii looks leng




Mii & Qii

then 9pm we back home~Finish to enjoy my Christmas day~

haha..

ReBoNdInG DaY~

Today Morning 7.30am out with mummy to k.k...
Wow...so early lea...haha..wanna go to REBONDING with Alyssa and Yong..
cause no car out, so need out so early..
Mummy put Me and My sis near CP...
we ate there..^^

+|9.15am|+
then we go to CP inside there...less ppl inside there...also can say almost no ppl...
then we wait at 5th floor there... xD

+|10.00am|+
we go to CP cc there play online game for wasting our time....
almost 12.00pm, Alyssa and Yong come already...

then i go with Alyssa to G-Cut there reBonding..
haha..leng zai hlp me rebonding orh..xD like NIPPON's bOy..^-^
sis and Yong just go and cut theie hair only, then they go having their shop.^^
almost 6pm we just finish the rebonding..
haha...

new hair~but seems look not so good..>< TIRED~
Just rebonding~ seems like nothing and looks so childish ==

ShppiNg dAy~

YEAH~~

Today go to shopping with Alyssa..^^
we go to find saloon for rebonding...but the most cheap is at G-Cut..
Only rm 80....whoa...so nice's price...^^

haha..after that..we go to watch movie..

"AVATAR"

nice movie~i love the character so much ♥♥♥♥♥~

and it feel so real one...although so many 3D..just like real only..wont feel like 3D..^^

haha..after watch movie then we back home~

Foh Shang Yuen Performace

Today 5pm we went to Foh Shang Yuan meet...having some performance at there....
Wow~ feel excited..but scare play miss..><
at there we testing the instrument and the mic..
till 6pm ++ sin start...
so many ppl there..><

then we sang the christmas song for the opening before start...
after that we finish...seeing from other church's performance..
Got Heritage's performance dance...one is hip hop and the other one is la la dui de...
haha..

after that is our turn...we perform some song...live de..^^
one is "Happy Day" and the other song is "Shining Light"

that song name "Shining Light" i got miss a part...oh man....so scare orh...><
when training no miss liao why that day will miss..><
maybe too scare ler...

then is our pastor turn to having a speech...
^^ she is white ppl...so many thought maybe she will talk english..
but the answer is NO...she talking chinese...many ppl were shock...haha...feel so
funny..^^

after that got a singer who name call "Ivan"
wow~ he sing so great..although all is old song..^^
haha..and the action so cute too..^o^

till the end..he got sing with us..but just a while...
then whole ppl who got perform go up there to sing "Merry Christmas" and "Joy To The World"together then BB..haha....

then we play a while some song then finish our job..^^

thx LORD that day no raining..^^
and let us can serve you...And GOD pls let our Band can serve you forever and ever..^^
and we want Humble...^^

ShoPpIng dAy~

Yes!! Today mommy bring me and LST to Wisma buy clothes...
hahaha...
she gave us each rm200 to buy clothes...
first we just walked and looking only...
then i saw my friend Rocky who work at there...haha...have a talk with him..^^
then we go to buy some food food to eat...
then meet dao my school de friend and my classmate...Michelle and Chen Jia Min
we walk together and buy things together...
haha...have a lot of fun..
then 5pm++...they go back already..
Me and my sis continue to shop..

Oh man~ not so many leng leng de clothes lea...just buy dao some...but not the most like one...
And good is about got discount..haha...

love discount so much...muackzz...♥♥

after that we meet mommy...and almost 8pm...
we go to Kaya Street eating...
Feel so full...so eat not so much...
after that we back home at 9.30...
Online~~~~ ^^
then night night
♥♥♥♥

BITCH AND DOG!! BETRAY!! GO AWAY!!!!

today i feel so angry....hope write finish can feel better...shit..damn bu shuang now!!

Fuck!!
Don't know why see Dog and Bitch take pic together...direct feel very angry!!!
what the hell...

that bitch!!! she steal HIM...
although i not care already..but i hate her!!!!
狗男鸡女！！！both of you together is the most match!!!

fuck!!! better go far away from me!!!!
CHICKEN!!! you better go to die la!!! steal him!! you tot who you are....
fuck!!!

抢人家的还在那里炫耀，去死啦你！自己是外人还死命参进来！！

很气恨气恨气啊！！！！！！ ><
为什么给我遇上这种人！！
我很讨厌！！
背板者！！世上最讨厌的！！！！

真够xXxXxXxXxX!!!!!!!!!!!
幸亏没有了，结束了。

车大炮的人！！！说道好像真的...pei!!!!
去死掉他啦....

好气哦。。既然还公布出来。不知“羞”是怎么写吗？！？！？！
真是很xXxXxXxXxX！！！！！！！

SINGLE LIFE ALREADY...xD

Haiz.. at last also slow than him...but nvm la...the answer also is break...so just let it be lo...
SINGLE LIFE IS COME ALREADY~

TODAY---17 OF December 2009
××BREAK××
WOW....no control..no need scare this scare that..haha..GREAT!!
No need to worry about someone angry or someone dont like or need to prepare things..

YES!!! SINGLE!!

but the one I hate is YOU did it like that!!!
SHIT!!! DONT LIKE YOU TO DO THAT FOR ME!!

Leader is right..this ppl ar...aiskz...
NO USE!!
haha...

Feel FREE~~~~ (^0^)~~~~

Congraz to me my friend!!!

UEC Result OUT!!

OMG OMG OMG...

UEC RESULT OUT ALREADY!!!
Oh man..my result very worst one..><
How orh how orh...
I scare only my result like that lan c..

So sucks man...><
NO A..
and of course no de la...
so hard lea....
wanna get A..
or you are pro students if not hard to get A...

almost forget my candidates' index no..
Nasib still got the exam paper...haha...
finally can see my result...

oh man...not good ba my result..><

I hate THAT!!!!!

Just Back from the Kaya Street..
At home online...

R611 find me...he say that HE wanna break with me..
walao..direct bo mood..
Hope to know that well..
then i ask him how he know..

then he say he know from a friend that who HE tell..
then the friend tell him..My god..So angry...
Wanna KILL HIM...
how can be like that...
although so long no contact already..
but listen dao HE plan to break with me..
Heart still feel uncomfortable..

What happen.???!!!!
Doesn't me don't have feel with him, is not it?
Why will feel so bu shuang?
Now regret also no use anymore...

I hate you done that to me...
But i will early than you, that you want do it for me..
I hope that I can do it...

But R611 say he will confirm to me...
If that's real one...
Then I have nothing to say..

I just will say GOODBYE to HIM...
Be Friend??
Not sure can do it anot..
If HE never mind,then maybe sure can be friend..


*********
today is 3rd months together..
Arghh...feel NOTHING!!!
3rd months NO MEANING!!
Just like shit!!!
Nothing worth to memorial for the 3rd month...
1st and 2nd months..He never care for it...
WTH!!!
[he] is right..!!
I must listen what [he] say at the first time!!!

Christmas Performance at Kaya Street

Today got a performance at Kaya Street there..
Walao...wear so formal..me look like work already..
After sing we go to jalan jalan at there...so many things to sell gong..
haha...
so hungry..whole day no eat...so we eat nasi ayam at there...
then almost till the end already..then we wait our leader fetch us back...

at the time..we sit at there for nothing...
so boring...
suddenly a digi sell-girl come and say wat challenge with her friend for take my num..
My god..been shock la of course..but no give also..just talk with the sell-girl..
then she go liao..

after a while...leader come...then back home...

ONLINE-ONLINE-ONLINE...

then SLEEP..

Churching Day

Today morning so tired~ 7am wake up..last night 2am sleep..zZz
at church keep feel sleepy..
Go to morning church to serve God..

It also is HIS church..
But today I didn't saw him...As I knew it will happen..
But feel nothing...If i meet him at church today morning..
What will he respond? hehe..hope to know that..

Today also MC day2..tired..

After morning church back home direct go to have a sleep..
then night go to my church serve God again..

Now already midnight...I cant sleep...dono why..

I Want to Know What Love Is

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm colder

In my life
There's been heartache and pain
I don't know
If I can face it again
Can't stop now
I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me

Gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love's finally found me

In my life
There's been heartache and pain
I don't know
If I can face it again
Can't stop now
I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me

Show me
I want to know

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me

Oh, let's talk about love


By: Mariah Carey

MC DAY~ ughh...

walao...today MC...tired~
whole body feel pain la...><
cant play so over..
oh man...take my life like that..
stay at home..doing nothing..

later need go to church practice song again..
night dono will go where....
hope got go out..or go to beach a while...
i like the sea....xD

I Want to Know What Love Is!

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm colder

In my life
There's been heartache and pain
I don't know
If I can face it again
Can't stop now
I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me

Gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love's finally found me

In my life
There's been heartache and pain
I don't know
If I can face it again
Can't stop now
I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me

Show me
I want to know

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me

Oh, let's talk about love

Shopping Day and YAM CHA~

Wow...so long no go to 1B shopping ler...
I with LJQ, LST and TPW..
Go ther by TPW's mother car..
First time saw her mom...xD

we just have a walk at there..
accompany TPW buy clothes..
At there I buy some make up and some earing..haha..

On 2.45pm
TPW go back to find her mother..
Then just left Me, LST, LJQ and LJQ's BF..
haha..we going to the cinema watch "FENG WAN"
dono what the movie name called already..xD
Feel boring la..
all use computer de..
and so fake..
but LST say nice...==

after shopping finish..
LJQ back to my house a while then she back..
at night...we go to yam cha with LST's friends..
haha..so funny orh them...
got Yao Yao, one is far's cousin, Ah Tey, Yong, Tian Long and 2 guys i dono wat their name..

LOL..I with Yao Yao them talking talking..they are so funny..
and that night..
first time i drink alcohol..but just a little % la..
walao...just a tin..got abit feel drunk like that..
so weak la..xD

after that..almost 10pm..
back home online..
walao...DAMN tired de...
let LST play computer then i sleep...

Boring day!

BORED BORED BORED~ ><
SO BORED AT HOME.
Go shopping also same boring...

Nothing to go and no way to go...
Where does my friends go? I didn't saw them...
Mmmmm~ i wanna work...but it's too late...

Wanna organize some activities!!!
A trip~ Go to Galau Brunei, Mellisong, and somewhere..
have 2 days 1 night...haha....
but now finding friends and car to go..
who want join??
TT

so sienz laaaa.....><
just online online and online...
Help me~~
now i more prefer at school...
miss my school life~

You don't know that I am missing you

At night...I'm just alone stay at home watching tv..without YOU..
Almost 8pm go out with my sister and his bf with his friends eating...
They were very happy to talk all about it..
Only me..silent at there...all my mine is thinking about you..

Walking back from the restaurant to the playground...
I keep looking to the phone..
I hope that you will send a msge to me...
Even just a short message..
But..I receive nothing...
Every time when i receipt of a message, and I very much hope that it will be you.
But it's not yours, again and again hope that is you, again and again disappointed..
Keep waiting for you...

At night,YOU go out celebrate with your friends happily...WITHOUT me...
YOU didn't invite me...I cant believe that...As your gf....YOU DIDN'T...
With all your friends..boys and girls....talking happy, playing fun , drinking, eating, dancing with them..ALL WITHOUT ME.

YOU don't know that..today...ALL FRIENDS INVITE ME GO OUT...I didn't go..
Cause I waiting YOU...but at last what am I receive? NOTHING..
Before your birthday coming..I so nervous of your birthday..I keep ask friend what should I do for your birthday..

But the day is coming....
TODAY IS YOUR BIRTHDAY...
All I prepares things...
Even a surprise, that i had plan..
hmm...no use....
all waste...

SAD, HURT, MANY....
NO MOOD ANYMORE....



see this angry? it just a vent..if not? what can i do?
telling ppl? NO WAY!

Does he still loving me?

Today is his birthday...I have prepare somethings special to him
and some plan..

but...when i sms to him..he seems not yet sleep..
noon he just reply...he seems no mood...sms to me lcly there...

ok fine...today is his birthday..dont care it first...
but...he treat me cold...
what happen..
i dono...
this few days we almost no contact..
isn't because of that then we have no topic to say?
feel Embarrassment?? yes..maybe,but...why seems like nothing to talk with me?

His birthday hurh...
Seems like no birthday..
no invite me...
dont know him go where celebrate...what do i mean for him?
now i really dont know...
I feel I so useless to do as a girl friend...
BF's birthday....no need me...haha..that's funny right?

many friends wanna help him celebrate..
OK..I'M FINE!! LET THEM HELP YOU TO CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY!
NO NEED ME ALREADY...
I NOT ANYMORE!!!

Feel funny....
what am i for him now??
a lover?
or a toys?
or just NOTHING....

present for him...no use anymore...prepare for him...feel like wasting my time already


SAD...HURT...CRYING...
he dont know...
feel disappointed......

I DIDNT DO LIKE THAT!

What you mean about i talk our things to all my friend?!
NO,I DIDN'T DO IT!!!

Why you say like that!!!
What you can prove it...
Even something happen...I also no tell!!

Write on my facebook...
Just wanna vent....I didnt tell who also!!!
Only some happy things i just share with my friend..lik that also cant?!?!

FUCK!!! WHAT THE HELL YOU SAY LIKE THIS!!
If I really got say like that....
ok,then is my wrong...
But i didn't tell!!

Really Dont Understand

Today morning I am going to my church...
Qii's Brother having wedding..
after church cleaning went back home..
I sms to him say " not yet wake up? "
No respond to me..

Then after a few hour...
Sms to him again.." still sleeping? "
no respond also...
already is evening...
He still no reply...
What's going on with him?

Im starting worry...
Why even a msge also no reply me..
What happen?
Did he feel my very annoying?
Or did he feel that he not love me anymore??
What happen???

I very worry....
I have no faith to send him a msge again...
Do i make him angry?
Did i did some wrong?
What the hell is going on now??

My god...
I really dont understand...
What should i do?
Keep sms-ing you?
I really dont know...

一个真实的故事，男女必看。女孩的心声。

记得大学上妇产科课程的时候，第一节课，是我们学校附属医院的妇产科老主任给我们上的，那是一个60多岁的老太太。。
　　
　　她并没有像以往的教授一样，直接开始讲我们的课程。而是和我们谈起了所谓的敏感话题----“处女情结”
　　
　　记得当时我们大学三年级，这个问题对我们这些学医的学生来说，同样是个很敏感的话题，至少大家公开的时候从来不讨论也从来不提及。。。
　　
　　老太太是这样说的：
　　
　　在我们学习妇产科之前，我很想问你们一个问题，尤其是男孩子一个问题，你会希望你的妻子是处女吗？
　　
　　希望的请举手。。。
　　
　　我们一片愕然。。。
　　
　　女生开始四处张望，看谁举手了。。
　　
　　结果没有一个人举手。。。
　　
　　老太太又问：那你们能够忍受自己妻子不是处女的举手？
　　
　　女生又开始张望。。。
　　
　　仍然没有人。。。
　　
　　老太太又问：女生希望自己的丈夫是处男的举手？
　　
　　一只，两只，三只，最后竟然所有的女生都举手了。。。
　　
　　老太太又问：女生能容忍自己丈夫不是处男的举手？
　　
　　女生的三分之二都举手了。。
　　
　　老太太笑了：男生似乎不够勇敢啊，女生们都承认了。再做一次调查。。
　　
　　这次，希望妻子是处女的，几乎所有的男生都举手了；而能够忍受自己的妻子不是处女的，只有5个人举手了（我们班有16个男生）。。。。
　　
　　这是真实的事情，这是给我记忆最深的一堂课，这是老太太开始的一个调查，直到今天，每当我和寝室的同学聊天的时候，都会聊到这个老人。。因为她让我们这些女孩子第一次开始清晰的思考这个问题
　　
　　你怎么知道你的妻子或者丈夫是处女或者处男?
　　
　　老太太接着又问了我们第二个问题: 你怎么判断你的妻子或者丈夫是处女或者处男?
　　
　　一片宁静...
　　
　　没有人回答….
　　
　　老太太笑了: 你们都该是7/80 年代的孩子吧, 大家可都说你们这一代是混乱而垮掉的一代, 想不到也这么拘谨阿….
　　
　　她然后严肃的开始了我们的课程, 那是我5年医学生生活中记忆最深刻的一堂课。
　　她是这样说的(后来和我们寝室的人聊天的时候, 大家惊奇的发现, 我们每个人都几乎记下了她说的每一句话…)
　　
　　“ 我刚才这个问题, 也许女孩子无法回答, 因为你们无法去判断你们的丈夫是否是处男, 至少从医学的角度上是这样的. 所以有时候, 是不是女孩子们会觉得不公平呢!
　　
　　
　 　那么, 男孩子又怎么去判断呐? 你们不愿意说, 我来帮你们说. 你们这代孩子肯定都看小说, 不管是黄色的还是红色的, 也看毛片,可能女孩子也有看的吧.. 所以你们不说, 我也可以知道, 你们心里一定说, 你们可以从第一次和你们的女朋友或者妻子的性生活中来发现,因为女孩子又一个这个社会总在提的”处女膜”.
　　
　　在我们那个年代, 这个是根本就不能随便说的, 那样的女人会被认为是”婊子”, 不过到你们现在的时代, 你们应该都开始公开说了吧..
　　
　　老太太很幽默的看着我们…
　　
　　但是你们知道吗? 其实那个处女膜什么也代表不了…, 所以其实从医学的角度来说, 女孩子和男孩子一样, 也是解放的…
　　
　　我们一片雀然……耸人听闻……无论男生还是女生都开始窃窃私语…..
　　
　　老太太就那么慈祥的看着我们….
　　
　　你们不用议论, 你们是医学生, 应该会用医学去分析你们看到和听到的事情…
　　
　　在医学中, 所有的事情都没有绝对的, 都有例外….
　　
　　处女膜也是这样, 有的女孩子可能天生就处女膜缺如, 有的女孩子处女膜可能非常薄也就非常脆弱, 小时候不当心, 可能做一些激烈的体育运动, 它就自己破裂了,而你可能还不知道; 有的女孩子可能小时候得过某些妇科疾病, 虽然一般来讲, 在未婚前,
　　
　 　医生是不会通过阴道做任何检查的, 但是某些特定情况下, 可能必须要这样做, 那么这样的女孩子的处女膜其实是认为损坏的; 还有某些医疗事故,某些医生把未婚的女孩当作已婚的人做了妇科检查; 还有的女孩子小时候好奇, 自己可能去试, 所以认为的造成了破裂,而还可能有的女孩子的处女膜很厚很结实, 所以很难破….
　　
　　这么多可能, 你说你怎么知道你的妻子是哪种可能呢?
　　
　　其实是一个女孩子, 你又怎么知道你是哪种类型呢?
　　
　　当然, 你们可能会说我这个老太婆, 讲的是个例
　　
　　但是你们这些男孩子, 又怎么知道你们的妻子不是个个例呢?
　　
　 　我还记得我曾经的一个患者, 那时候我还年轻, 刚是个卫生诊所的大夫, 而那个年代又很保守. 那是个下雨天, 晚上已经很晚了,我一个人值班…半夜的时候, 门被敲响了, 是一个自杀的女人被人们送来了, 那个女人是割腕的, 当时基本已经没有救了, 但它仍然说着一个字:我是处女阿…..那时候我还年轻, 但是多年后, 我想那个女人也许就是处女膜很薄的那种类型, 所以小的时候做大的体力劳动的时候弄破了,但新婚之夜, 她的丈夫狠狠的打了她, 骂她是”婊子”, 她就自杀了, 以表她的清白….
　　
　　老太太讲这件事情的时候, 表情很凝重…
　　
　　我讲这些, 不是在告诉女孩子们, 你们应该如何给自己找理由, 来园谎, 而是告诉你们这些年轻人, 结婚应该为了你们的爱, 而不是处女的身份…
　　
　　何况现在整形医学发展的很快, 修复处女膜也不是一件难事情了…
　　
　　可以说, 从医学的角度来讲, 在这个社会, 女人已经可以和男人一样, 你已经可以无法分辨出她是否是处女了, 就象你无法分辨一个男人是否是处男一样…..
　　
　　你应该有婚前性行为吗?
　　
　　老太太讲到这个的时候, 给我们留了个悬念..
　　
　　她说, 我知道我这个年纪的人, 和你们讲这个, 你们会认为我古董, 跟不上时代了. 所以今天我不讲, 我让你们自己去门诊体会….
　　
　　妇产科门诊流产室是我终身难忘的地方, 也许每一个医学生, 都不会忘记那里吧…
　　
　　我接的第一个病人是一个北京女孩
　　
　　她害怕在北京做碰见熟人, 所以来到北方的城市的医院里
　　
　　
　　她是那种很乖巧的类型, 想来在学校里应该属于很漂亮的那种类型吧.
　　
　　“怎么了?” 带我的老师问她..
　　
　　她的脸有一点红: “已经一个月没来例假了..”
　　
　　老师头也没抬, 划了两张化验单 “先去做个检查, 拿着结果再来..”
　　
　　她不好意思的走了…
　　
　　老师看看我, “你们可不要学….你们待时间长了就知道了, 产科门诊主要就两件事, 给产妇检查和给这样未婚先孕的做流产..
　　
　　那个女孩子一会就会来了, 果然怀孕了..
　　
　　“要么?” 老师问
　　
　　“不要, 我…”
　　
　　“不用说原因了, 确定不要?”
　　
　　“恩..”
　　
　　“好, 做无痛的还是一般的? 无痛的600, 一般的300…”
　　
　　“大夫, 我听别人说, 有那种药物的, 不用做手术…”
　　
　　“药物的不干净, 一般我们医生不建议, 而且你这个有点大, 药物的也不一定安全, 但是我得先说清楚, 这是第一个孩子吧..
　　
　　“恩”
　　
　　“流产有各种并发症和后遗症, 我们医生当然会尽量避免, 但是有些可能是难以避免的, 有的人甚至因为这个而造成终身不孕, 所以我们一般建议第一个孩子能留还是留.不过如果坚持, 我们也会给你做的..”
　　
　　“大夫, 我这个孩子不能要”
　　
　　“好, 那你是做无痛的还是一般的, 一般的疼, 无痛的就是打点麻醉药, 不过贵.”
　　
　　“那还是一般的吧.”
　　
　　我看了看那个女孩子..
　　
　　老师把表格递给她, 让她签了字, 然后我带着她去找护士给她测体温脉搏之类的我清楚的记得, 那个女孩子是82年生的, 和我一边大
　　
　　之后我把她领进了人流室
　　
　　那时我看的第一个人流手术, 非麻醉的
　　
　　其他都记不得了, 但我清晰的记得那喊声, 当时我就一辈子发誓, 我永远也不会到这里来…
　　
　　老师做手术的时候, 对我说: 我不希望在这里看见你们…”
　　
　　然后她就什么也没有说
　　
　　人流手术, 其实是很危险的一种, 至少我是这样认为. 在医学上, 任何手术都是危险的, 因为虽然她的风险率只有千分之几或者万分之几, 但是你要知道, 如果降落在你的身上, 她就是百分之百阿….
　　
　　更何况, 对于女人来说, 那有可能意味着永远不能生育
　　
　　不要对我说, 你不在乎是否有小孩, 不要对我说你未来的先生不在乎有小孩, 但我知道, 至少绝大多数的男人都是希望有自己的孩子的…除非你愿意冒险…即使你能找到一个不在乎处女之身的男人
　　
　　我再罗嗦一句
　　
　　其实自己也不知道自己想说些什么…
　　
　　不是医学生的人, 没有经历过流产室里一幕幕的人, 也许永远也无法理解这些
　　
　　所以, 我的老太太老师才会对我们说, 等你们到流产室实习的时候, 就知道你们将来应该怎么做了..
　　
　　
　　所以有时候, 自己有点庆幸, 自己曾经学过医…
　　
　　记得我们班的男生结束妇产科实习的时候, 通常都会感慨两句话:
　　
　　“哎, 做女人太不容易了, 我以后得对我妈和我妻子好点…
　　
　　“哎 , 打死我, 我也不和我爱的人在婚前发生关系….
　　
　　记得以前有一篇用数学模型分析女孩子该不该答应男朋友和他发生关系的文章, 很好
　　
　　结论就是决不
　　
　　如果他爱你, 他不会这样要求你, 即使这样要求你, 你拒绝了, 他也会理解的...
　　
　　如果他不爱你, 那你正好可以趁此机会脱离他, 却寻找自己真正的爱人.....
　　
　　我不喜欢那些仁义道德大谈的, 但是面对自己妻子的时候却要大谈特谈”处女情结” 的男人…
　　
　　但是作为一个女孩子, 为了保护自己, 为了自己的快乐, 还是把那些留在婚后吧
　　
　　因为婚前的行为, 你无法料想她会带来些什么
　　
　　而如果你的那位真的爱你, 也决不会因为你的没有答应, 而离开你
　　
　　而一个已经无法保全的女孩子
　　
　　去识别那些能够让你快乐的男人
　　
　　虽然这个社会上有很多”处女情节”的男人, 但也同时有很多真正的懂得爱情的男人, 不要为了婚姻而婚姻
　　
　　更何况现代的医学毕竟在发展(不过这条并不是你应该放纵自己的理由)
　　
　　我罗嗦的太多了..
　　
　　有点混乱…
　　
　　不过我想, 如果你待在一个不讲究处女的地区, 那么你尽可以去经历, 就象美国派里演的一样
　　
　　如果不是, 就看你想如何去过你的生活了,,,
　　
　 　比如在加拿大, 当地人, 很少有没有过性生活的人, 至少在我这个岁数的, 所以如果你想找个当地人的话, 你尽可以去按照他们的方式去过;如果在中国, 至少在北方城市, 我很少听谁说, 我要找个非处女老婆的, 所以如果你想找个那里的当地人, 你就不得不想想了; …..
　　
　　最后让我重复我的那个老太太老师最后对我们说的话“
　　
　　老太太看着我们 说：女孩子们，看见了吗。在这个社会里,其实很多男人都是希望自己的妻子是处女的，而且很少有男人会忍受自己的妻子不是处女的事实。这在目前的中国，和以 前的中国相比，这样的状况，其实并没有改变过。。所以每当我在门诊看见像你们一样年轻的女孩子来做流产或者堕胎的时候，我就想让他们看看你们举起的 手。。。所以,既然你们是医学生，更应该懂得保护和珍爱自己，女孩子们。。希望我不会在流产门诊看见你们其中的任何一个。”

撒谎者的十二个典型特征

1.撒谎者不像惯常理解的那样会回避对方的眼神，反而更需要眼神交流来判断对方是否相信他说的话。

2.“你去过她家吗？”“不，我没有去过她家。”对问题的生硬重复是典型的撒谎。

3.男性摸鼻子代表想要掩饰某些内容。

4.手放在眉骨附近表示羞愧。

5.描述一连串发生的事情，编造都是按时间顺序进行的，能否流利准确地进行倒叙是判断对方是否说谎的标准之一。

6.叙事时眼球向左下方看，这代表大脑在回忆，所说的是真话；而谎言不需要回忆的过程。

7.说话时单肩耸动，表示对所说的话极不自信，是说谎的表现。

8.人在害怕时会出现生理逃跑反应——血液回流到腿部(做好逃跑准备)，因此手的体表温度会下降。

9.明知故问的时候眉毛微微上扬。

10.假笑眼角是没有皱纹的。

11.嘴角上扬表示轻蔑。

12.反复翻手腕表示不相信自己的话。(是翻开又翻回去)

爱的无法自拔

之前，对你不敢放下所有的感情。
对你，只有想接近却不敢。
怕伤害，怕被玩弄，怕一厢情愿。
对你，真的会有种恐惧。

但现在，不知不觉中，已渐渐地放下所有的情感下去了。
我对你，没什么戒备了。
对你，我相信了。
但始终会害怕，结束的一天会到来。
但我知道，这也是无法避免的。
该来的始终都要来。

我已经爱上你了，爱的无法自拔。
多希望你不要离开我的视线，每分每秒的与我在一起。
好想掌握你所有一切的行程，让我知道你在做什么。
要你日夜地与我联系，不想对你有任何的隔绝。
好想了解你的一切，不想有任何的隐瞒。
只想把你牢牢的套在我的身旁，却害怕你喘不过气。

我知道，你不希望我牢牢的套着你不放，完全的绑着你。
我也知道，你很好动，很喜欢出去玩，认识朋友，参与活动，闷不着的。
我更知道，你有好多朋友，人缘很好，说到做到，很讲义气的人。
所以有很多的事情，我不敢多说，更不敢多做。

你的一句话，足以影响到我的情绪。
你的所作所为，可让我安心烦躁。
你的一切，我都看在眼里放在心里。
我的心，我的思念，全都因你而加快。

你的联系，使到我很快乐。
你的冷淡，使到我很担心。
你的热情，使道我很甜蜜。
所有的一切，完全是因你而变。

我不知我们在一起会有多长久，但我只知道我爱上了你。
就算没有未来，起码也有与你在一起的美好回忆。
好让我觉得，爱你，能够让我感到幸福。

他是我的！！

好讨厌啊～竟然这种事发生在他身上。
很不服气啊～那女的凭什么这样做。
她亲他？ 我的妈呀！
我跟他只亲过2次，她凭什么亲他啊！

气死我啦！！
好不服气！什么跟什么吗！
怎么可以这样啦～
那女的好过分哦！！！
他是我的男友呃～怎么可以让你想亲就亲啊！
况且你凭什么亲他啊～

而且你还说她很单纯？！ 可我不这么认为啊！！！
好不爽啊！！！！
哪里可以这样！
你又不是她的谁，她凭什么这样做！！

呜。。。。
我好不甘心啊～ 怎么可以这样对待我啊～
你明明是我的，她却这样对你。
什么天理啊～～
她怎么可以这样抽水啊～
呜。。。。TT

回复到过去了

好高兴哦。。他终于像以前那样了。
最近他的情绪不好，而且又有很多事做。
所以几乎每天都没有sms，与他聊电话都是不欢而散。
但昨晚，他的心情好回了。
好高兴哦。。
终于放下了心中的大石头。

有时候，真的不懂该那他怎么办。
每次有事情发生都是不告诉我，自己承担一切。
真傻，为何要这么做？
我知道你是觉得就算告诉我，也帮不上忙而且多一个人操心。

这也没什么吧。。我操心是因为关心你嘛。。
哎～真是的。。
好傻哦你。。
真不知该骂你还是该疼你啊。。

但是好高兴你没事了。。
好想念你哦～

日常预防痘痘技巧

1、许多人常常有一下子摸摸东西，一下子摸摸脸的小毛病，这是非常不好的习惯，因为东西上的污垢沾染在手上，等到不注意时便会沾染于脸部的肌肤上，造成细菌的滋生，而产生青春痘，所以请避免不必要的手与脸的接触，而额头前的刘海也容易刺激皮肤，应尽量将它往上梳。

2、常常与脸部接触的物品，例如被子、床单、枕头、洗脸毛巾等，要时常保持清洁，保持清洁的最好方法，就是时常清洗，并曝晒于艳阳下，由于紫外线具有杀死细菌的效果，使得细菌无法生长，所以请养成彻底洗净床单、被子的习惯，洗后还要拿出来晒晒太阳。

3、相信蛋糕、甜点等此一类的食品，是许多人无法抗拒的，但是喜欢吃甜食，一天可吃两个蛋糕而不能自制，这可是造成长青春痘的一项因素，因为糖份多的蛋糕 及碳水化合物多的点心最容易造成青春痘，另外，花生等果仁类也应尽量少吃，爱美的少男少女们只好对这些食物敬而远之罗！

4、养成每天运动的习惯，适度运动可促进新陈代谢，对于身体及肌肤都有良好效果，但是千万不要5分钟热度，要持之以恒，记住，即使是每天3分钟的体操，也是保持美丽肌肤的秘诀。

5、常吃蔬菜也是一个杜绝青春痘的好方法，因为红萝卜、波菜等具有可以增强对细菌的抵抗力的功效，而青椒、椰菜花则有抗菌效果，此外，均衡的饮食，有助于身体的健康，当然能减少青春痘的发生率，大家千万不能偏食哦。

6、一些速食、零食容易造成便秘，尤其是喜欢吃宵夜的人，宵夜不仅对胃不好，而且会造成便秘，而便秘则是青春痘的肇因之一，少吃宵夜，多吃一些天然不含人工添加物的食品，如含有植物纤维的蔬菜水果以及乳酪等，也是预防青春痘不可或缺的重要因素。

7、人经常会有烦恼，精神上的压力会造成皮脂分泌旺盛，也是长青春痘的原因之一，应该多做一些让自己心情愉快的事情，解除每天的工作或学业上的压力。

8、时常熬夜对于肌肤也有很大的伤害，如果不想长青春痘，无论工作或功课再忙，最晚也应该在11点就上床睡觉。你知道吗，肌肤的新陈代谢通常由晚上11点到半夜两点时进行，良好充足的睡眠，能让肌肤受到完善的保养。

9、每天洗脸请勿过度，洗脸虽然是美丽肌肤的基本，但是一天早晚两次或是流汗肮脏时再洗就够了，如果过度清洗，会将皮肤上的保护油脂完全洗去，造成皮肤太过干燥，对于肌肤有很大的伤害，不可不注意。

10、近来，紫外线的伤害成为热门的话题，爱美的女士为了防止紫外线，而将粉底涂得很厚，这是错误的做法，应该使用具有防止紫外线的UV防晒粉底，并且记得睡前务必彻底卸妆，否则油脂会塞住毛孔，易长青春痘，当然，早上也不可只用水匆忙洗洗脸就算了，肮脏的肌肤化妆后最容易伤害肌肤。

战痘攻略之食疗篇：

一、多吃含维生素A丰富的食物。维生素A能促进上皮细胞的增生，可调解皮肤汗腺，消除粉刺。含维生素A丰富的食物有金针菜、韭菜、胡萝卜、菠菜、牛奶、动物肝脏等。

二、多吃些含维生素B2丰富的食物。维生素B2能保持人体激素平衡，对皮肤有保护作用。含维生素B2丰富的食物有动物内脏、奶类、蛋类和绿叶蔬菜等。

三、多吃含维生素B6丰富的食物。主要有动物肝脏、肾、蛋黄、奶类、干酵母、谷麦胚芽、鱼类和蔬菜（胡萝卜、菠菜、香菇）。

四、多吃含锌丰富的食物。这类食物有牡蛎、动物肝脏、瘦肉、奶类、蛋类等，其中以牡蛎等海产品中较多。

五、多吃清凉食物。这类食物主要是瘦猪肉、蘑菇、银耳、黑木耳、芹菜、苦瓜、黄瓜、冬瓜、茭白、绿豆芽、黄豆、豆腐、莲藕、西瓜、梨等。

六、忌吃辛辣刺激性食物，少吃脂肪性食物和甜食。

去痘印的日常好习惯

　　1、每天八杯水。清早没有进食前一定要喝一大杯水，可以清肠胃。
　　2、每天一便。坚持养好良好习惯，排毒，必要时可吃大蕉调理一下。
　　3、切忌熬夜。熬夜是美肌的最大天敌。
　　4、洗面的时候，要彻底洗净，不要有残留的化妆品。
　　5、少玩电脑，手机不可以开机放床头，有辐射，对皮肤影响厉害。
　　6、不可以用手挤痘痘，任其自己脱落，这样不易留痕。
　　7、床套，枕头巾要定期清洗，否则会有很多螨虫滋生，睡觉的时候很易感染。
　　8、最好在十一点前睡觉。睡前不要吃宵夜。
　　9、上火的东西尽量少吃。
　　10、护肤品不要乱用，最好用一系列的产品，要了解自己是属于什么样的肤质。
　　11、珍珠粉沟蜂蜜做面膜，可以去痘去印。
　　12、白砂糖洗面：可以去印，而且面部会比以前更光滑，洗完脸后用砂糖洗洗，效果好好。
　　13、用维生素E涂痘印，坚持涂痘，印子会逐渐变淡。
　　14、多喝些花茶，可以美容皮肤。
　　15、有痘的人睡觉一定要把流海给夹起来。这样不易造成前额生疮，也不会令生疮。

透视白羊座（也就是我，完全说中了我的一切）

01. 白羊办事真的讲究暴力么？

只要稍有内涵一点的白羊，就不会用暴力解决问题，相反，她可能会一样反常态地安静，该玩的依旧玩，该笑的依旧笑，不是白羊恢复得太快，而是白羊不想去想，她觉得想了会更烦恼，会影响自己。
然而，当她坐下来单独想事情的时候，便会与刚才活泼的样子形成很大的反差，这也许会让别人误以为她情绪起伏很快，其实不然，她只是没把自己的郁闷的那一面表现出来，她的心思从来都没有从那件郁闷的事情上移开过。

02.白羊很容易移情别恋？

白羊要是喜欢一个人，绝对是非常忠贞，非常专情的，而且热情又不失温柔，总能让另一半很开心。如果白羊提出了分手，那就是那么的感情正在降温或是和你在一起让她十分不开心，可是如果白羊真的很爱你，她会努力让你们的感情再次升温，尽力的去维护你和她的关系，所以，如果一个白羊要离开你，你确定她对你还有感情的话，那就去挽留吧，挽留白羊很简单，用一个细心，温柔的动作，让她知道你有多么爱她，或是说出你最真挚的话，发自内心地说，白羊不笨，听的出你是否真心，她们貌似冒失，其实很细心，能从细节里看出你对她的感情。

03.白羊很强悍？

白羊很独立，可就是太独立，才让很多人觉得白羊很强悍，好像她们不需要依靠，其实白羊独立，只是她们喜欢一个人处理事情，因为她们自信的认为，这世上没有难倒她们的事。可是这并不代表她们不需要依靠，她们当然需要，很需要！她们需要一份精神上的支持、激励和安慰，需要有人关心，有人疼爱，有人依赖，需要有人给她们安全感，一直保护着她们，在任何情况下都能抱紧她们，对她们不离不弃，这样白羊才会感觉幸福。


很多人都觉得白羊太坚强，坚强足以抵挡世间的一切坎坷，其实白羊不坚强，她只是不想让你看到她脆弱的一面，她的真实只在她最重要的人面前显露，所以，白羊看起来悲伤的快，恢复也快，但是确切的说，她们不是不伤心，而是演技太好，让人看不出破绽。

04.白羊座想问题很简单？

白羊座想事情并不简单，他们只是表现简单，私底下，复杂的情况他们都不知想过了多少次了。他们只是不确定，怕丢脸，所以才把事情简化。这也许跟白羊座的自信有关，往往最自信的人也是最自卑的。他们不是那种习惯心灵传达默契的人，他们需要肯定，直面的肯定。所以一个白羊，即使知道你先后他，只要你不说出来，纵使你对他再好，他也不会有特殊的表示，因为他有自信你喜欢他，但他怕自己会错意，白羊把尊严看得很重要，爱一个人，却不会爱的失去尊严。

05.白羊座很花心？

人不是天生花心的，白羊也不是。如果白羊花心，那一般是在真正爱过之后，伤害太大了，便不会在全情投入。也许有人会这样说：“白羊不花心，那干嘛一会儿关注这个，一会儿关注那个？”

那可能有几个原因，可能白羊的心里有人了，可是不愿提起，就去关注别人，很多白羊都有这个习惯，挂在嘴边的往往都不是喜欢的；白羊无聊时，也要自寻娱乐，既然没事，看看帅哥美女，并不犯法吧？

或许那个人不帅，但是就是做了那么一件让白羊觉得好玩的事；白羊是出了名的好奇宝宝，看到什么新鲜或关注什么，这都是正常的现象。

06.白羊痴情吗？

这件事不可能打包票，但是可以告诉你白羊对待每一份感情都是认真的，他和你在一起就是真的想和你在一起，不是想玩你。如果你们最终无法幸福，就不要责怪他，因为他会离开你是因为他不爱你了，或许曾经爱，但后来不爱了；或许想试着爱上，但做不到。

白羊爱一个人总有一个固定的过程，起先表现很热烈，往后就平淡，再往后就几乎看不出了。很多人就此觉得白羊的爱情似乎一时新鲜。其实不是，白羊越爱你，于是越沉默，这就是白羊的特征。真正的爱是用深沉的方式表现出来的，只是轻浮的感情才会热烈到不真实。

07.白羊主动吗？

白羊会做浪漫的事，但不擅长说甜言蜜语的话，尤其是白羊女，他们觉得那样做实在是太娇情了，白羊的自尊很重要，追认不会死皮赖脸的，也就有一两次的机会；要嘛答应，要嘛就不。两次不成，一般是没机会了。所以说白羊主动，其实她们主动有余。或许是非常非常被动，对真正喜欢的人，表白何尝是简单的事？所以对白羊， 你不但要理解，而且要明白。

08.白羊爱哭吗？

白羊爱哭，他们一般是静静的哭，而且不让人察觉，诺不是一天到晚关注他，你根本就不知道，这个疯狂大闹的丫头刚刚哭过。而在白羊真正爱一个人的时候，都会变得很纳闷(moody)，一旦受伤一天24小时哭是正常的。只是看你有没有机会看到，其实白羊很孤独，尽管朋友随抓一大把，知心的却没有，也许你会说白羊虚为，但这不是虚伪，而是空虚。

这就是白羊，真正的白羊，

真正的悲伤和痛苦，除非你是他生命中最重要的人，否着你永远都不知道。

想你的习惯

就这样简单你走过来
而我终於明白了
自己为何要存在

慢慢的我已经离不开
因为我已爱上你了
没有任何原因的
如果我说爱你能不能永远相信

这一天我想跟着你
跟你说你最爱的笑话
我想以后都能在一起

每天想着你已变成习惯
一直幻想你在我身边
牵着你的手我和你甜蜜的走
世界宽得有一些无奈
你和我只有一个
该怎么不怕孤单

说好了我们都要勇敢
就算不小心迷路了
也能够听见你的
如果我说爱你能不能永远相信

找到你的幸运多完美
所有感觉多特别
想带你走到世界边缘
未来不变

这一天我想跟着你
跟你说你最爱的笑话
我想以后都能在一起

每天想着你已变成习惯
一直幻想你在我身边
牵着你的手我和你甜蜜的走

我和你甜蜜的走

不习惯

终于考完试了，可以放轻松了。
可是，终觉得好怪。
平常，都是好期望这天的到来，因为每天都在忙这忙那。头脑几乎快要爆炸了。
但今天，终于可以放轻松。但觉得很不习惯，太游手好闲了。
简直是太轻松了啦~ 快要闷死了啦。。
好不习惯哦。。

闷到想东想西的，反而希望有东西给我做呢。。
房价一定要找东西做，不然不但在家会发霉而且还会闷死在家呢。
说到放假，我好期待假期的第一点的到来。
因为我与我教会团队将会到西马举办布道会。而我呢，则是玩乐器的一群。。
好期待但也好紧张哦。。

但是回来后，我希望我可以找到暑假工好让我打发时间。。呵呵。。
希望能够找到呢。。如果给我找到，放假时期不必为钱而烦恼了。
唉~假期对我们学生来说，是多么快乐的一件事，但是要是没钱花，要玩什么做什么都不方便了。
钱~ 哎~

讲钱真伤感情。。。。
但是上就是要用到钱啊。。没办法。。

好想念他哦~ 呵呵。。不知他现在干嘛啊。。
好希望可以每天的跟他见面哦。。但是有点距离。。。唉~要是他住在我家附近那就好了，几乎每天都可以见面。。^^

对不起谢谢

今天凌晨时候。
我与他通了一通电话。
终于，他肯理我了，我很开心。
我知道昨晚他生气我，他没理会我就是因为他还在生气。

与他通了一通电话，也知道了我的想法。
他对我说，他知道后他很心疼。
我很开心，因为，他还是在乎我的。
只是用着不同的方式来回应我。

有时候，我们因为sms或一通电话而误会了对方。
所以世道我们都有一些矛盾。
但今天，当我知道他还是在乎我爱我。
我很高兴，若他是当着我的面对我说。
我会很感动得抱他。

他一整天都忙着篮球比赛。
忙完后就赶着去教堂。然后陪伴干姐姐聊天。
直到凌晨才回到家就打电话给我。
我听了有点心疼，他今天想必已经很累了，但他还是给我一通电话。
我很感动，而且感到很欣慰。
他，不惜一切的为我做一切。
也知道他对我是真心。
虽然不知可以维持到几久。但我希望那一天永远都不会到来。

亲爱的，我爱你。
谢谢你对我做的一切。

对不起，我胆小

今晚，与他又有一些小争执。只因为我的一句话“不知道”
就把他给惹毛了。
但他不懂我所说的“不知道”，是意味着我不痛快，我不甘心，我不喜欢。
他告诉我说，他与那3个女生出去了很多次。
直到现在才知道，到底怎么搞的啊。
被蒙在鼓里的感觉，很不好受。
还说若他们向他告白，他到底要不要接受。
我懂他是要我对他说我爱他，我不要他这样做。
但我说不出口，我今天已经超级的不高兴了，昨晚遇上变态狂，今天他整天不理我。
我已经是很不开心了，我没有那么多的忍耐了。
他竟然这样问我，我很不爽的回答“不知道”
接下来几乎全部都是这么说。
他就突然一轰炸起来。我没出声，我忍着，我不想发凶。
直道挂电话。

我很想对他说。
“你到底有没有把我这个女友放在眼里，我今天已经很不高兴了。
你还这样刺激我，连安慰都没有。
我现在只求你给我点安慰，让我安心点，难道你不懂吗？
我只希望你能关心我，难道你还不明白吗？
很多事要烦，很多事要做，我已经快崩溃了。
你的一句话，能够让我开心，伤心，心疼，紧张。
现在你说那3个女生跟你出去了很多次，而且没告诉或通知一声，还说可能会向你告白。
我现在就告诉你，
我要我们之间没有其他人，她们向你告白，你可以拒绝他们的。
当他们在唱歌那样。我不要你理会她们的示爱。我只要你爱着我，疼我。
把我当女友看待。
是，我是吃醋，也许吃得很厉害。
我不说出来，因为我不想让你觉得我在绑着你。
怕你听多了觉得烦，不耐烦了，喘不过气。
所以一直不说。
我会对你冷淡，是因为我感觉不出你对我的感觉。
不是因为我不喜欢你，而是不想让你觉得我很难缠。
我还是爱你的。
很多事情，我一直压着不说，我一直忍着当作没一回事。
就是不想让你多一份压力。
我知道你有很多事要做。我大约也知道这身份是很多东西要处理。
我不想你因为我的事情而使到你烦。
很多时候，我很想抱你，很想独占你，不想你跟任何女生来往。
我知道这是不可能而且也很过火。
但每次都很担心，你的心，会被其他人偷走了。
也许你会觉得是借口，但对我来说全都不是。
是我想对你说的话”

我不敢说，我胆小。
我没有那么多的勇气说。
而且我也不习惯说这些话。

我知道我们俩都是很被动的，但我会努力让我们俩不是被动而是主动。
我好希望我们能够在一起长久。
我好希望我们可以向朋友那么样的玩，像情侣那么恩爱。
该认真的认真，该玩的就玩得那样。

好希望，他会知道我内心的话。
我，不敢说，只会把心声一一地写下。

我的心，是属于你的。

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whole day online...
so boring...almost die..
and dont know why today so moody..
maybe because of him..

Tonight just talk phone with J..dont know why he suddenly bu shuang liao..
then we stop talking phone...
later soon he send me that he hate me..
OMG..
what did i wrong to him?
I dont know...just let it be...

So shit today...Midnight online let me meet up the pervert..
What the hell is going on!
That dog so shameless...
shit...
so angry..!!

why tonight i damn unlucky...
Haiz...

Finally finish UEC MOCk

Yeah...
today is the last day for the UEC MOCK exam...
10.40am already finish exam..

I went back home have a good sleep..then keep online till midnight..
but damn boring also...

Oh~ God~
how about tomorrow if i have nothing to do...
I think i will die soon..T^T

Bla Bla Bla

Morning..we having church at Tanjung Aru there for our servise God.

He no find me to talk at there..I'm just looking him when i on the stage playing music..

And he said that today he wont go out..

I got abit dissapoint of it...

After church..

Me, my sis, KWL, LJQ and Ah Fui go centre by bus..

at that time i got call him--James..

He say he will come..

So make me got abit happy..

When we reach there..we ate at the Nasi Ayam restaurant..

then we go to buy ticket..

that time i got call him..

but he say that someone at there so cant watch scary movie..and say that call us go to watch.they dont go..

I direct no mood, i already try hard to find a chance go out together..

but he seems like not care there...

izzit onli i care of it? he make me feel like that.

i really dont know what should i do..

My sis and LJQ say break with him laa..

I dont know..

after that we buy the ticket.

they suddenly say that they can go ler and help..

that im ok..then i go to buy..

after we boy the ticket..

suddenly say plus one more ppl...

wakao...that time i alr bu shuang liao...

plus this things happen...

chiu....WTH is going on!

then i go to buy with Ah Fui..

now there got 5 ppl come...

I know that the GIRL will come with him too...

(That girl i not so like...is J's k sis...)

but soon..all of them alr reach...

I didnt talk with him(J--James)..

seems like we were quarrel...

then i dont care also..

but inside my heart veli bu shuang...

<12pm>

when we go in to the cinema..

beside me got a sit..but he sit with his friends...

terus nget sai...

then i dont care it..

just quite at there...

then few minutes later..

he came and sit beside me..

then watch movie together...

He start to talk with me..

then i sin talk with him...

then both of us nothing already...

<1.45pm>

after watch finish movie...

first..we already separate liao de...

but then together again...

LJQ, Ah Fui, KWL already back..

so just left me, my sis, J, Jia Wei( J's cousin), Another 2 ppl dunno name..

we at cetre play snooker...until 3.15pm..

between the time, he have accompany with me go to reload...

haha..actually is i want reload use my own momey..

but he reload for me...

feel so sweet..

want give him a kiss...

but scare...

but at last still give he a kiss on his face la..

he seems been shock...haha...so tuo soi orh me..><

after that..

ermm..seems got abit in confusion..

got go play game...

go with sis onli...

separate go lagi..

and many many..

But one things i remeber so clearly..

he with that girl so close....

bu shuang..==

dont know why..

seems let me feel that actually they is couple..

but in front me act like friends and be with me...

dont know laa...maybe think too much liao...

at last...

4pm..

back home liao...

ahhhh...so tired gong...tomorrow got exam lagi...

MATH..zZz...

may god bless me on my exam..

night need go to church...aiskz....

1 Month

Today is our first month together...
I'm so happy...
He said that this Sunday after church go out together...
haha...
happy...

=]

I'm thinking too much

Today..jia wei sms me...
he said that..
James phone no money...
so cant find me...

Oh my god...is me think wrong..
and he said..
he miss me..and hope that i can call him tonight...

When i heard that..
I really feel that I'm thinking too much about it...
I'm so sorry to him about that i'm thinking wrong...

I'm so happy that we aren't break...haha...

....izzit break???... (2)

Today...both of us no find each other...
I think i know the answer already...

I'm hurt...
But what can I do?
Nothing....

And so shit this things happen...
this month very busy for exam...
If I knew that we will break early..
better don't start this relation...

Make me can't focus to study..
Whole of mind is him..

Make me suffer...

....izzit break???... (1)

Yesterday we seems got a small quarrel...
i dont know how to do....
today...

i find him..but he seems like lazy to bother me...
what happen...
then i no reply him...

izzit the time has come??
our love have been stop now??

I don't know..
If is like that.
just let it be..

Mount Kinabalu DAY 2

Today morning I'm so early wake up..
cause last night i got abit asma...
he was very worry me...haha..

then he wake up liao..
after he wash his face and brush his teeth..
we go out have a walk..
I force him de...(he scare me asma again)
haha..cause inside the room so sienz...and parents still sleeping..

almost 9am..
hungry...take money from dad and go out the restaurant eat...

after eating we walk walk at the resort again...
so the background so beautiful...

12pm..back to K.K

so happy have a sweet memory with him...
haha...
and i saw his sleeping face...
so CUTE...haha...

Mount Kinabalu DAY 1

Today,both my younger sister and brother are not at home..
They went to Tenom with my grandmother..
haha..finally I'm free..

My dad suddenly ask we wanna go to Mount Kinabalu to stay 2days 1 night..
haha..we so exciting and say ''YES!!''

Don't know my mom suddenly say that can bring a friend go there...
I'm so shock..
then i bring HIM go..
actually my 2nd sister got ask her friend wanna go anot.
but so disappoint that they cant go..
so just my parents,my sister,me and HIM..

when we reach there..he keep act like so cold there..
and my mom seems very like him...
but my dad...ermm..i don't know him..
cause his face so straight like that today..
haha...

at night, we are going to Fairy Resort eating our dinner...
after eat finish wanna back to our resort..
i with him and my sister go to the car to wait my parents our first..
walao..so cold and so big's wind...
make me wanna cry...
can't tahan it...><
but he seems like nothing there... keep protect me...
haha.. sweet..
then all of us came in the car...
we not dare to open the window cause so cold..

after that we back to resort...
we take a rest a while then 3 of us go out have a walk...

haha..my sister so SHINE...xD
we at out there pak tuo but my sis alone at there..
she keep talking phone with her boy boy...
haha..

almost 10pm..
we back to our resort there and talk and yam cha at outside the room..


12++am..
sleep..
=]

1st Day out with HIM

Today is the first time we out together...
I'm so excited..

When I eating with my friends and sister..
He came and sit beside me..

1st time, out with him..
haha..don't know what should I do..xD

We seems got abit feel uncomfortable..
cause...
From FRIEND to LOVER..
haha..

then we just talk and go with my friends...
He so friendly...
got talk with my friends...
so i no need scare that will got ''cool wind'' blow over...
haha...

School Holiday Day 1

Today go shopping with HIM..
first when he came to us...
i duno wat should i say with him

but nasib HE is different than b4 the guy that i know..
he just lik frenly..wont make me feel so Uncomfortable
after that we go to shopping and eating..

He so funny orh....haha...
then we play snooker with him...
but his fren who also play snooker but at the other table keep looking us..
make him feel uncomfortable and my sis saw that his fren(girl lai de)
keep looking him.and talk with their friend...
but after they go.he playing well

after that we go to watch movie-《吓到笑》
walao...got abit scary but funny laa...

after watch movie..we walk a while then back home..=]

Goodbye SINGLE LIFE

He,is the one that i love.
He,treat ppl very nice.
He,got his own style.
He,very gentle.

Today is the day that he show love to me..
I really don't know what should i do..
Should i accept him?
or i should reject him?

In the evening,he told me that he like me..
hope that i can be his gf..
that time i really thought he is joking with me..
but he is serious..
I really don't know what should I do..
so that he give me sometime to think.

At night,he find me.
I thought he will direct ask me for the answer..
But he no do that..
He just like normal that ask me doing what and many..

I thought he wont ask..so i can think it more..
when i doing all my things and tell him..

slowly,he ask me..
for the answer...

first i hope that after I exam sin together..
want he wait...
He said that he can wait..
but he hope that we can together...

at the last, I accept him..
he so happy..seems like a kid there...i feel so funny..=]


Finally, I found my love...
The guy who i love..
The guy who care me..

Happy Day

Today morning..we go to church serve God...
after that...we are planing to watch movie at CP..
haha...then after church..
we ate our breakfast then go..
actually Jun Yong go de...
But he dont want watch ghost movie.so that he dont go alr..

So..just me,my sis,Jia Qi,Ah Hui,Yong Quan(piano partner) go..
We go by bus..haha..inside the bus so many PILAK..
hahaha..xD

then at there we meet with Jia Wei and James...haha...
They also go from church.but they go first...
then we go to buy movie ticket then play game at there..haha

after that,we go to watch the movie...
actually the sit is..
James,Jia Wei,My sis,Me,Ah Hui,Jia Qi and Yong Quan..

but that stupid James keep say that he so scare to sit at the corner....==
I know he is acting de..so dont care it.but he keep bothering me...
so i change the sit..
so..
we sit just like..
Jia Wei,Me,My sis,James,Ah Hui,Jia Qi and Yong Quan..
walao..that not like movie loo...is true story(怪谈） la..zZz..
first part alr so scary...TT

After that movie...actually Jia Qi ,Ah Hui and Yong Quan wan go to watch that " Final Destination "...then i wit my sis and James and Jia Wei go to play snooker...
but the movie is full...si that they come with us..

walao..first time play snooker loo...i donno how to play...
then Jia Wei and James teach me and my sis...
haha...
finally i know abit...so my sis also...haha

after that.we go to yam cha talking....
almost 4.30pm..
then we back home...haha..